“From Chronically Ill and Depressed to Vibrantly Alive”
I overcame being chronically ill and depressed in my youth to becoming one of the most vibrant and alive people I know. Being diagnosed with a chronic digestive disorder at the age of two, developing severe eczema, and asthma by the age of three resulted in me adopting a restricted diet and being dependent on medication.
Doctors told me there was no cure. And that I would need to take medication to manage my symptoms my entire life.
I refused to accept this.
I surpassed my own goal of living a high-quality life without any medications and have become a health example to everyone around me.
I want you to know who I truly am. The “about me” pages that I see on blogs tend to talk about how happy and healthy a person is and how much they have accomplished in their epic life.
My dear friends and family have seen me travel the world, have a beautiful kid, meet the man of my dreams, and live symptom-free as well as depression (and anxiety) free. They have also seen me at my worst and know how low and dark I have been. In my teens, I had little reason to live, my experience of life was miserable. I was bloated, constipated, in pain, foggy-headed, depressed, and anxious. Today, I live in a completely different reality, one in which I am excited to wake up every day and to live my life; I have no intestinal pain, I have an epic relationship to food, and my mind is clear.
Overcoming my life long sentence of doctor-prescribed medication…
In my teens, when I started questioning my doctors about all of the medications I was on, they told me that I would need these medications for the rest of my life. I remember walking out of the office and feeling 1000% determined to live a life without medications. But I had no idea how I would do this.
Fast forward twenty-five years…
I recently had a blood test; the nurse told me that I have the healthy blood of a teenager. I live symptom-free, without any medications, by practicing exactly what I teach in my Gut Health Program.
Curing my own depression by Learning how to feel and how to think
As I went into university at the age of eighteen I was relatively physically healthy, but I still suffered from depression (and some anxiety). Again, I was on a mission to find a way to live a life free of depression and anxiety and again without medication. For the next decade, I dove into personal development, self-help, meditation, yoga, energy healing, dance, therapy, and psychotherapy.
I lived and worked at Esalen Institute, home of Gestalt therapy and incubator of the Human Potential Movement, for five years. I participated in over one hundred workshops; all of which helped me get to know my Self and gave Me permission to feel my emotions. This was the first wave of relief to my depression: learning to feel.
I also lived, worked and studied at a raw food zen retreat center called BodyMind Restoration Retreats up in Ithaca, NY. Beyond raw food cleansing, I learned about my mind. I learned how to watch my mind, I learned about awareness. I learned how to follow my breath. And I learned the beginnings of how use my mind, instead ot it using me.
“Learn to use your mind, and not let it use you,” is one of my well-remembered teachings from David.David, Zen Master
Overcoming belief systems that did not serve me, to becoming a master of my own life.
I have always been an odd duck and a black sheep. The life that was explained to me as a way to live a good happy life, never felt like it fit me.
Questioning my internalized belief systems were the beginning of my lifestyle revolution. To name a few old belief systems of mine:
- I used to unconsciously believe that I needed to be ‘good’ to be loved and accepted.
- I used to live with a scarcity mindset, where nothing ever felt like enough, especially me.
- I unconsciously ate all the emotions that I did not know how to feel and process properly.
I was crystal clear, from a young age, that I did not want the typical life of two kids, a husband, a nine to five, and a house with a white picket fence. I am so happy that I followed this truth of mine, it took me to amazing places and made me who I am today.
After graduating top in my graphic design class, I said no to a life in a cubicle; I headed straight for yoga teacher training and continued towards my unusual life.
- I started and owned a one-of-a-kind hand-made hat business that was wildly successful.
- I tried a poly-amorous relationship, with whom both of them, I remain to be best friends with today.
- I had a wild run in the pot industry in Northern California.
- I spent many weeks of many years participating in building the best city in the world: Black Rock City. Where I met and married my Man (not the same year.)
- My feet have walked on half of the world’s continents.
- I explored my own inner realms with a few plant medicines while traveling South and Central America.
At the base of my chosen life path are my intentional belief systems:
- There is no ‘good’ nor ‘bad’, boy, girl, or even human. We are innately worthy and our worthiness is different than the quality of our actions and behaviors.
- My relationship with my self is the most important relationship for me to tend to; it is my truth, my inner compass, and results in the quality of my inner Self. Without it I suffer and feel lost.
- Failure is apart of life, feeling it and facing it opens up my life.
- Life is half easy and half hard. Half positive and half negative.
- Food is medicine.
- The answers we each seek are ultimately found within us.
- The persistent focus of becoming more me; generates my true connection to my potential.
- Incorporating challenge into my life, often choosing to feel uncomfortable, generates a satisfied and meaningful quality to my experience of my life.
Resiliency and Adversity
I remember setting out on my first big travel to a new continent at the age of twenty-two. I remember being scared about my health, I remember feeling nervous about who I would meet, and wondering about how the long list of unknowns ahead of me would end up.
I also remember being sure that I would figure it all out. This self-cultivated feeling of self-confidence has been my greatest ally. This thought, ‘Everything is figure-out-able’ has opened up the world to me and removed many potentially self-imposed obstacles and limits.
I am currently the woman of a seaman; we have chosen a lifestyle of travel and living without a home. We have a thriving, healthy, and happy little one; I am a full-time traveling mom.
Update since 2020. We are no longer living on a cruise ship and we are about to move into an airstream to continue our adventure.
Update 2021. We are living (and I am working) in our airstream.
The resiliency, that I now possess, astounds me.
My now well-versed skill of dealing with adversity is remarkable.
Looking back twenty years, my current life is deeply impressive. “From Chronically Ill to Vibrantly Alive” (and traveling the world); I could not be more thrilled about what I have created in my life and who I have become.
- Optimal physical health
- Emotionally capable and authentically resilient.
- Mental Mastery
My Recent Chapter that Lead Me to Today.
Five years ago, I stepped away from my last well paying source of income, I was a type of boutique farmer. I left because I felt a calling from within me, I knew there was something that my heart and soul wanted to bring to the world. A life project that I wanted to birth. I realized that after I had healed my Self, I was ready to contribute to the world!
Step one was figuring out how I wanted to contribute.
For a year, I spent hours every week sitting with my Self, asking my Self open-ended questions and then listening to my internal answers.
My first clue was that I wanted to write; the theme that continued to come up was that I wanted to inspire people to change by believing that new (and challenging) things were possible. I started a hobby blog but soon realized that I would need to brand our family to make an income from advertisements, which I did not want to do.
I knew there was more… I kept taking my Self on long walks, asking my brain questions, and continued to listen.
I figured out the components that I wanted to create in my life.
- To be a word artist.
- To be location independent.
- To financially support my family while we are rock climbing around the world.
- To live a lifestyle where we (my fam and me) spend time together, breathe fresh air, and eat clean food.
And then it all clicked for me…
My newest Chapter: Life Coach
I believe and feel in every bone of my body that coaching is what I am meant to do. I am over the moon excited to have finally figured out what I want to offer the world.
Life Coaching has sounded like a cheesy profession until I met my mentor Brooke Castillo, an educated psychologist and more impressively self-hep guru. She and I share many of the same teachers and belief systems. I am fortunate to study her life-changing work and am profoundly excited to share this revolutionary way of how to approach one’s own life: Mine, Yours and anyone who is interested in mastering their internal reality.
It was not until I met her and her model that I fell in complete love with coaching. The applicable structure that she teaches is brilliant and I am deeply grateful for what she brings to life coaching and the world.
Me as a Gut Health Coach:
There are two causes for chronic digestive disorders. Food and Mood which accumulate into lifestyle; or as the doctors say… diet, stress, and lifestyle.
… but they do not tell you HOW to change.
The process of going through my gut health program is worth the price of admission a thousand times over. Plus you and your future self get the benefit of your best shot at long lasting health.
- Your brain is already programmed, would you like the skills to write your own code?
- Life is full of stressors, would you like the tools to maintain balance?
- Change is hard, would you like the strategies to make your healthy habits effortless?
To learn more about what I do and how to work with me, put in your name and email to watch my video about falling in-Love with “healthy” and then sign up for a health strategy session.
At the end of our strategy session together, if I think we’re a good fit, I’ll invite you to work with me and together we will help you.
- eat your favorite food without guilt and shame
- know exactly what supports your own gut health
- lower your probability of disease
- create internal space so you can show up like a rockstar in your life, work, and relationships.
- feel totally on top of your health and hook your future self up
- Fall in-Love with Gut Friendly Foods.
This is me,
At Your Service,