The Worst Part of FINE: Freaked Out Insecure Neurotic and Emotional
Fine is one of my favorite words to pick on. What does anyone really mean to say when they say, “I’m fine”? I know when I say, “I’m fine,” I am in some kinda closed off, leave me alone, freaked out, insecure, neurotic, and emotional mood. As if something is bothering me, but I am so disconnected from my Self that I am not even really aware of being bothered.
…Until I hear the word FINE leave my lips.
I have trained my brain to make a little flag go up.
Once the flag goes up, I then I ask my Self with curiousity, “Okay Self, what is going on here?”
I proceed to do a check in with my Self, an internal scan armed with curiosity, as to what is going on inside of me.
I look for two clues specifically :
What physical vibrations am I feeling? Contracted, tight or tense is often what I find.
What thoughts am I, or was I, thinking? “I don’t want to deal with…” “I can’t handle… “or some version of this.
These two simple questions always yield insight into how I got into a Freaked Out Insecure Neurotic and Emotional, FINE, situation.
Quality Me time
The simple, almost ritualistic, process gives me some time and space to reconnect with Me. This, in and of it self, feels like a gift that I give to my Self and begins unraveling my FINE.
Giving attention to my inner state is one of the most relevant acts of self love that I know of and intentionally practice.
Having spent many years living in a state of FINE, I know what is the cost of suppressing, avoiding and resisting my emotions.
I have lived in the net negative result of emotional lock down for years. I was miserable. Trust me, feeling your emotions is far more worth your energy than the alternative.
Raising an internal flag to the word FINE is one of my tools that keeps me connected to Me and helps me stay tuned into my emotions.
What is Freaked Out Insecure Neurotic and Emotional?
Freaked Out Insecure Neurotic and Emotional are simply a bunch of feelings and emotions mixed up with some resistance and avoidance.
When you remove the resistance and avoidance the emotions become much easier to feel and process.
It may sound counter intuitive, so try it for yourself; it works wonders for me.
Curious to learn how to allow emotions?