I am over trying to be Normal.
I have come to accept that I am a sensitive person, not a normal person.
Sensitive to foods.
Sensitive to people.
Sensitive to chemicals.
I always have been and now I finally accept that I always will be.
I can love myself exactly as I am.
My parents used to pray for me to ‘just be normal’.
I had eczema all over my body when I was two and I could not eat birthday cake as well as a long list of other foods.
My parents wanted the best for me of course.
They wanted my life to be easy; having food sensitivities is not easy.
There is a cultural belief that we all suffer from; the idea that the goal of life is to be happy and that we ‘should be’ happy a majority of the time.
This belief causes a lot of unnecessary suffering.
It causes people to believe that they should feel different than they do.
I know I bought into this belief for a long time; I got depressed and suffered from anxiety partly because of this belief.
Now I believe that life is 50/50.
Fifty percent of the time fun/happy/easy/positive.
Fifty percent of the time sad/hard/frustrating/negative.
Now, my life feels easier because I am not resisting the negative; I am expecting and accepting it.
It is still the same.
But I have stopped trying to be someone that I am not.
I am much more comfortable in my skin.
I am me.
And being’ Me’ is grand.
It is such a relief to be over and done with trying to be normal.
Is there a way that you are trying to be someone you are not?
Who would you be if you stopped trying?